Im tired! -piglet laopo

My turn to blog!

So long i never blog le i know someone is not happy.

I'm tired and busy..

I know he's tired and busy too.

But he always makes it a point to blog..

Thats is why i love him too..

3 more days. Or maybe two days.

Our second month anniversary liao..

8days never meet liao. Tomorrow 9 days liao..

This few days, i'm having my exams.

Today had cross country.

Cos i had photography duty im excuse.

I had the urge to run.

But i think my leg still injure.

My leg couldnt take the weight of the fats and run..

I'm getting weaker.

Just like a fatty running.

I dont like my figure..

I have accept it somehow..

But sometimes just couldnt help it but hate it..

I'm hungry now..

Suddenly brain hanged.

This few days seems like we had nothing to talk about. 

It seems like somehow we are drifting..

We are too busy..

I'm too tired..

I'm emo for dont know what reason.

I think i have neglected him for my show.

I just need to relax but somehow i cant.

My mind has been pre-occupied by things.

But i dont know how to say neither explain..

sighs..

As compare to him, i suppose he miss me alot?

But why i cant feel it..

Leg pain.

Blister all over.

Here injure there injure.

Here one hole there one hole.

Exams only chinese and physics pass.

I think others no need see liao.

Should be all fail.

Maths fail damn badly.

I've got nothing to say already.

Today suppose to go to ahboy's school for one courses and try out.

But im too tired and lazy to go..

I know ahboy wants me to go so he can meet me and see me cos he miss me..

But i think  i have disappoint him by not going and not blogging recently cos this whole blogging stuff started by me..

Now my brain has worries about my money..

I dont know what crisis will i have..

Since young we seems like we have no money problem..

I think now i grow older..

And holiday period i suppose i wont study also.

Mayb i should go work or sell my blogshop stuff to earn money.

So they could save money for my pocket money..

Even though is not much, but every little amount of money will turn into a big sum of money..

One week $20.

One month $80.

One year $960.

Ten years $9600.

Just 10 years and a small amount of pocketmoney could turn into $9.6k..

I envy rich people.

Tomorrow ahboy working hard to earn money even though he's busy..

Sunday he have to chiong his project..

So i was planning.

Mayb we celebrate a belated 2nd month?

Postpone to the following week?

Cos i will be having my holidays and going back for the various check ups and stuff.

Will start preparing something tomorrow.

Mothers day present wasnt prepare too..

Whats wrong with me!

Why am i so lazy..

Why cant i be more hardworking and stuff..

Why cant i be a bit more smarter.

Why cant my illness cure..

I dont want to spend my parents money on my illness anymore.

And fk those ppl who keep accusing me of ill-treating my parents and family.

I love them more than how others love me.

And our family bonding is damn fking strong.

And dont personal attack on me..

I got illness will indirectly affect my studies.

But my fitness and stuff defintely stronger and my WILL and THINKING is so much mature and understanding and stronger than others!

Dont ever come insult me and accuse me of things that i didnt do.

Dont like me just fk off my life.

Dont come and disturb my life..

Life suppose to be easy..

Happy..

Enjoyable..

Peace..

But how come i somehow suffering..

To be true, if i have a choice..

I dont want to inject anymore..

I dont want to be controlled with illness..

I dont want anymore money spend on medicines, needles and etc..

I dont want to test my blood..

Everything cost money..

No education = no money..

Need education = stress = time management = good health = well-controlled of illness.

But i failed all of the above.

I wish i could have my 'O's now and go work and earn money.

Even earn a little bit also good..

I'm tired.

I'm gonna end here and watch my video and sleep le..

Ahboy's resting and tired and working hard for everything he does..

I have to learn from him..

Hope he dont smoke and.. Do things to disappoint me and make me angry anymore.

I scare i cannot control my temper and attitude.

I scare it  will sour our relationship..

Signing off with loves, jolene piglet laopo <3 xavier ahboy laogong!