3.49am

I cried the most last night, making my eyes red and painful. My bro and mom saw me crying, they know why.

I woke up and went to do facebook, tagged checking for updates. I saw piglet's status and only then I realized she was hurt deeply hurt by me again. I wonder when will I stop sub consiously stabbing her? I gave her too many wounds.

She did gave me too in self defence. I saw that she went to update blog and she slept at 5am, all because it is my fault. She didn't have enough sleep ytd. Im so bastard...

Read the blog, I feel so guilty. What am I thinking??? Seriously? I feel like a dick, a prick. How can a man make a girl cry so many times? I listened to so mmmmmmaaaannnnnnnnnyyyyy songs that man shouldn't let a girl cry but yet time and time again. I did...

But I was glad, that she love me, she have been unconditionally loving me and what had I been doing??? I just suck...I deserve to be punish.

 I woke up watching doraemon and shower. After that I left my house for my project. Going to my friend house to do.

Texted piglet, waiting for her reply, I was doing my report. We slacked for a while before really doing it.

Played a bit too. Around 4pm, her mom told me that she will buy something small for us to eat. I was like ok and who knows? Her something small turns out to be a meal. A chicken chop. There goes my dinner with my friends who I anyhow agreed last night.

Texting with piglet was cool~ alright, felt better.

Left around 6 to hougang mall to meet my friends for 'dinner' but the main objective was to print the camera file that I spent 6days doing it.

Printed and I accompanied them to eat long john silver. My another group of friends keep pushing me to come over to clarke quay to accompany them.

I left around 8 and trained down to clarke quay. Reached there 830pm and slacked with them.

My friends talk a lot of dirty stuff. Musterbating blah blah. I joined in, quite funny and I have always been entertaining them and that was what I did.

After a while, they got bored and suggested a pub.

We went 7ven inch where there was a live band. My friends drank, I was thirsty but I was drinking only plain water as Im allergy to alcholol and can't drink.

The live band was too loud and funny how we communicate using text on our phone.

Played with lighter, camera shot, slowmotion and a lot of shits.

I was texting piglet the whole time. Holding my phone in my hands, putting it on table. Vibrates come and I would immediately attend to it.

But of cos I type slow, my friends were talking to me and I can't text while listening to them talking or if not that would be utterly rude.

Ended and we left. Slacked a bit before going home. Reached home around 1130 and I had my ppt slides to do as well as journal.

After came out of shower, I immediately do, hoping to finish and at least catch some sleep.

Oh shit it is 4.08 now. Gotta sleep at least even if it is just 2hours!

Im very tired now. Ending post~

Xavierahboy <3 Jolenepiglet signing off ^^