BORED

Ok im really really bored now, I have so many things to do, and yet im procastinating.

I miss out the collection for my cdc/ccc bursary and im not sure if collecting tmr is allow. And im not sure if im still qualify for it since i miss the date!

Mom complaining to me about marriage, my mom, dad and my sis all have their way and each of them can't agree to one another.

This is really crazy!

I was asked to be the bridegroom, i think. My mom told me but im not sure if in hokkien it means bridegroom. She say i have to follow my sis around.

I know nuts about marriage

Tmr im working and piglet say that i work good, cos got money but to me it isn't anymore. The money i can't spend instead everything will be going to pay my family debts.

Because of greediness, in cooperation and selfishness, each thinking for their ownself. My bro and my dad. My family is not who they are today...

My house is in mess, my mom lazy do housework, my dad don't want to throw stuff away. He like a lot a lot of things. My sis lazy tidy her room. My bro come back home play games.

Im always doing housework, i try to tidy up once in a while but they will make a mess out of it again and due to my busy schedule, it is really messy now. Even I lazy clean up.

My family likes to watch thing and none will take initiative to clean up and they definitely dun mind living in a slump.

If they complained about it, they dont do the job but expect some ghost or watever to do it for them -.-

Seriously my family is fuck up, im sick of it. Im sick of always the one pushing them.

If i fully focus on all the above, i will have no time for myself

I dunno wat to do. I feel like giving up....hais....

So much problems, so much disagreement.

If like tat, i wonder why my parents even wan to marry ?

They can't even agree with each other.

My dad likes to gamble, my mom lazy do housework.

My dad likes money, my mom likes family.

Nothing is really balance out at all...

Oh well, gotta stop complaining hais....

Im feeling so fed up right now, I have things to do later on but i wan to relax now. And I can't.

This morning sch was fun, we made cardboard stools and was put to test. Each group was put to the test. We came up one of the few top.

Our stool can support up to 4 mens adding up 200kg.

And we only used 1 5ply cardboard to make.

My friend who was the tester fall on some group's fail stool

Sadly i didn't get to see the girl i hate fall or it would be damn funny!

It ended, got home and really really bored.

I have nth to do. FB boring, tagged boring. Im feeling so vex, so stress! I want to relax! My mom keep ranting on me about the disagreement in marriage.

I wish everything to be over soon!

Ending post,

Xavierahboy <3 Jolenepiglet signing off~

STUCK

I drank a lot of water and i still feel like something is stuck in my throat.

So stuffy, I can't swallow my saliva properly. Like very pain :/

Woke up, felt satisfying from the sleep and went to play games awhile before preparing for sch

Piglet went for her O lvl chinese exam. She didn't finish the paper but that doesn't matter. Im sure that she will do well for it. :)

Reached sch, and it was pretty much a usual day. Sch started at 12 today instead of 9am

It was 2 class combined and the room was overcrowded with my classmates around

All chatting noisly until the 2 lecturer came in, fierce as they look, they indeed have this aura that by having their presence here, the whole class will go quiet.

They are nice lecturers, they are funny but when they get angry, it is not a nice experience at all.

So we were all given an hour 30min more than wat we need to do the bridge. Groups that finished the bridge can go off for their lunch.

Our lecturer went off for lunch and we all started working on our bridge. Previously we have plans on the bridge so it is just cutting, and forming the bridge using 20 straws.

We used only 18 straws and we suppoted more than 1.2kg worth of goods :) in which many group couldn't

My group was penalised for not meeting the requirement of having 15cm for the length of the bridge.

But doesn't matter, our bridge shocked the lecturer and even broke the previous record.

It was so stable that putting things on top, our straw bridge didn't move an inch at all.

I was really proud of cos ahahahaha

We were happy too ahahaha

The whole thing drag until 3.30pm and i was getting really hungry, hungry until stomache.

We went to eat and came back and started on our cardboard chair in which we there are requirement that it must be able to support 3 different size humans from 3 different categories.

A overgrown kid which is equivalent to fat, a norm dude which is norm weight and a small dude which is light and underweight.

The hardest thing is that we only have 3 cardboard to make.

Ok heavist girl weight i think got 75 to 80kg, fucking big size. Second got 55kg which is a guy and skinniest one and smallest one got 40kg a girl.

So we were all cracking our brain to make a stool that is good enough to support a 80kg girl =.=

Of cos she very kao pei, always act chio, honng guys fail and still so guai lan. I super wish she sit on stool and fall flat on her ass and im so gonna video it down and post on fucking facebook!

I fucking hate her, her kaopei-ness her fucking attitude.

Seriously, she should go look into a mirror la!

Zzzzz we came up with a prototype after awhile but it was only strong enough to support my friend who weights 65kg and to support a 80, i doubt so :/

We cracked our brains, killed our brain cell and yeah, we gave up and go home.

Me and my cute friend then go hougang mall to eat our dinner, saw the new bubble tea store, piglet told me about.

Some taiwan bubble tea.

Had ban mian again lol. Ate full full leh, then walk walk then go home.

The moment i reached home, i so want to bathe, i feel so dirty :/

Not sure why, but maybe cos i want to be clean? but im like so not?

I look so dirty :( i see liao, i want go clean, i wan go bathe.

I can shower up to 4 times a day, if i stare at a mirror too much

Gonna end blog, my throat still feel stuck !

Xavierahboy <3 Jolenepiglet signing off feeling kan kor :(

9days ever since i last blog!

My eyes gonna close! 
I'm so tired :(
I didnt know i was hungry this morning and i woke up at 5am..
Then i thought i would sleep again..
Then couldnt sleep from then..
Cant feel i hungry..


Omg i type this till i sleep at sofa ~.~


Okay continue..
Then i didnt know i hungry then it keep me awake for 2hours. 
It deprive 2hours of my precious sleep :(
It makes me tired and i drank a bottle of chicken essence. 
No choice..


Then went for chinese GCE 'O' lvls today..
So stress and tired..
Then i didnt manage to finish the paper just by a bit..
There goes my A i think...
HAIS!


But nevermind, its all over..
No point dwelling about it..


Now abit headache.
I wonder how i go back to school tomorrow morning sia.
So early..
Can kill me liao sia..


Still owe ahboy his second month gift leh..
I where got time rush sia!
I seems free but im not!
Im stress and tired..


Why singaporean kids need study till like that so pekcek..
Why angmoh kia study so relax..


Wanted to eat more things..
But too tired to swallow..
Just went to toilet then continue blog..


Before i tired and wants to sleep again..
Went to tagged and saw nothing and went to blog again..


Yesterday teachers wedding was so special..
Something different..
I really love it..
There's bollywood dance and stuff..
Not those typical but really nice and sexy girl..
So trendy sia!
This wedding was not what i expected i those is those boring and no class kind that i saw :X


But it turns out to be a really special one..
Everyone loves it..
Even all the student who went..
WOOHOO!


Teacher and his bro looks handsome..
His wife is super pretty..
Our school teachers who have been invited also wear till very pretty.
Miss Toh looks funny :D!!


I went back home at around 4plus and reach home and straight away sleep. 
Sleep till around 7 and woke up to eat dinner at mall..
Parents woke me up..


Then after dinner i went to arcade to play just one round of basketball..
With the wedding shirt playing looks weird..
I wear it and walk around looks funny too! 
HAHA!
Doesnt matter :D

Then packed bag and thought that i whole night cant sleep cos i didnt revise or study but actually didnt.
Is just that i hungry and woke me up for my tiredness..
Sleepy already then forget bring jacket and my hand freezing then i cant write fast..
This is how it cause me to unable to finish my exams..


My A :(
Disappointed lah, but nvm..
I need to do really well for oral and listening compre!
God bless me!
I need do well for other subjects too!


Okay i will continue to blog whenever im free! 
Cos its "holiday" now! 
But i still have to go back to school almost everyday! 
WTF! 


Enjoy some photos?


HAHA! 

Loves, jolene piglet~

Signing off with loves, jolene piglet <3 xavier ahboy! 

I just woke up from a satisfying sleep ^^

So I didn't blog ytd and it was because I was staying out and couldn't blog.

Rewind! Time : 940am Woke up late for doraemon show

It was after a while that I decided to go for my friend birthday instead of the private jam

I left my house around 130pm for tampines

Travelled to the area where the training jam was hosted.

Many many new faces, because of my injuries, I kinda walked through some moves. Easily done but the new faces was quite impressed.

Soon more of my friends came. And we started fooling around, jump a bit and etc.

I took an huge drop by accident when I couldn't control a jump and resulted in pain on my balls of the feet.

Really painful, even walking, I can feel it.

Piglet felt down, so I cheered her up, :)


After a while, we all decided to go home change before going to my friend's birthday bbq.

Went home, showered and went out with my bro to nex first to pay for the courts

I was getting really really hungry already, then my bro bought me choco mint to much on.

It was really nice but i think i killed all my tadpoles by eating the whole thing :x

Accompanied my bro to eat and talked. Hmmmm I felt closer to my family this year, not sure why but we just bonded better.

Then after eat, I went to take bus to my friend house. It was already 8pm.

Saw my friends and we cabbed down to parkway parade and bought 15 tau hauy and 15 soymilk for my friend's birthday.

Ahahahaha, because she always treat us eat tau huay so we thought that it would be funny to see her expression if she sees us with 15 tau huay as a present for her ahahahaha

Reached there via cabbing in to carpark G which the end of the east coast. Cost around 10bucks just to get from parkway parade to carpark G u can see how far it is.

LOL she saw the tau hauy and was kinda shocked! Ahaahahaaa

It was already 930pm that time and the BBQ haven't start hahahaha cos she came at 830pm and we're one of the first few to reach hehehe

Starting up fire and shit was troublesome, even the tent was troublesome too.

We ate food, slack, flip and talk cock.

Soon it was getting really really boring so me and my bestie decided to go explore around shore and saw rats, toad and I even played with a pussy!

OMG the pussy seriously cute la! She just got this cute innocent look and I couldn't resist but kept playing with her a lot of times. She was kind of my entertainment at intervals from 12am till the time I went off.

There was a sundown marathon and there is people who is fast to enough to reach 29km within 2hours and there are ppl who are as slow to reach 29km in 7hours.

I got tired around 3am and i was texting piglet till she slept lol.

After the last text with her, I slept for 20min and woke up with at least 5 mosquitos bites.

Damn itch! After a while, around 4.30am , I doze off in the tent again and woke up with another 5 more bites. -.-

It was really really bad itch! Even now, im still getting the sting from the after effect of scratching and itch at some parts.

So left around 6am and my friend's bf drove us to bedok where we took bus home. Slept throughout the whole trip.

Got home and did cafe before sleeping. Slept at 730am and woke up 915am. Initially wanted to wake up at 9am but mom woke me up at 915 so i couldn't afford to take bus anymore as Im going to be so fucking late if i do.

Left around 950am to go work and wat fuck up is that i was at a bus stop where there are 9buses in which 7 can reach hougang interchange and for 10min, that was no bus -.-

After 10min, 6 different bus service came all together. Wat is this? =.=

I was nearly late but didn't cos I trained down to city hall.

Ended work at 3pm, walked to bus stop and it was 315pm, bus driver drove off on me even though he saw me running towards the bus and I was infront of him 10m. He looked at me and fucking drove off!

WTF la, then I waited for a good 35min till a second 51 came. Like wat the shit?! By that time, 3 bus 80 passed by already!

Slept on the bus and reached home eat and slept till 2hours ago.

Gonna end post now, I kinda forget a lot of wat happened in these 2 days.

Xavierahboy <3 Jolenepiglet signing off!

15min

Yes, I like challenges, right now, I got only 15min to finish the blog.

My mom requesting me to help her watch over the washing machine and to tell her when everything is done as she sleeps.

Sound coming from the TV is kinda annoying hahahaha. Wrestling airing now, it has been years since I last watched. Hmmmmm the last one was cena's period and the earliest one for me is the rock period. That is so 2000!

Ahahaha :P Woke up and played games until I forget about time again. Made my way to my friend house. Needed to do the bridge

Was going hougang mall eat with my friend then piglet asked me time and place and I thought she wanted to come but silly me to think of that since she with her mother how can she anyhow go off!

Piglet went for her checkup and at that point of time, she probably just finished.

We redo the bridge again as our previous one is too weak and first bridge could only hold 1.2kg

We broke our record by making a bridge that could hold 4can food! 1.6kg

It is just amazing!

I left 10min! Gotta be fast.

Typing at 7letters per sec ahahaahaha How fast is that for ya? :P

Left around 1pm for our lunch. Or was it 2?

I dun rmb. I rmb going to hougang mall and eating the ah ma mee hoon kuay only to be disappointed.

The ah ma mee hoon kuay wasn't that nice and I to think I was craving for it =.=

Followed my friend to buy some random food at NTUC

So much like my gf lol! Buy sweets, buy drink, buy random stuff to munch at home.

But too bad, im with my friend and not piglet~

After that I left alone after calling to confirm that the one in charge of the pay will give my manager to chijmes

Reached there to be disappointed again! Manager left, saw me and stopped me. Asked me why Im here, told him that the person in charge will pass him cheque but she nvr did.

Asked my boss personally and she told me she didn't have the key to access and I was really piss off but she talked to me nicely, so I couldn't do anything.

I was fuming but it cool down after a while.

Went home alone and played games.

My mom suddenly asked me to do housework and for don't know what reason, I chiong ahahaha..

Tidying up, doing a lot as I can for the housework.

After that, I did my project "fold". Quite tough, as I screwed up last night.

Gonna keep doing. Goodbye peeps!

Piglet tmr going bugis!

Xavierahboy <3 Jolenepiglet signing off~

HIGH

OMG I dunno why im so high today =.= ahahaha im so high that my friend ashton couldn't take it ._.

Woke thinking I have no sch but mom was persistant in having me wake up and yes, something that I wish I don't know. I have sch. Knowing that in mind, I crawled out to already bought breakfast

3 breads sit on the table each calling out "Eat me Eat me!"

In the end I took the one with whipped cream on top. The whipcream was nice ahaha

Left around 7.50am as I didn't want to be late. 

Went with father to bus stop.

Reached interchange and yes Im late again bus luckily our lecturer was late too!

The queue was freaking long and I had no choice to but take another bus. Actually aint tat bad, just that it is a longer route so nobody want take.

While in class, I keep kena aimed by my lecturer. Don't know why...but he always aim me out of so many ppl.

I sat in a way that my leg is leaning on the table. Throughout my whole poly life, no lecturer have any problem with the way I sit but him...

He told me to put my leg down and keep asking me want eat roti, kopi or teh -.- 

I put down liao but automatically will put back up then he du lan.

Got one time, I really hungry so I decided to take out the 2 remaining bread, I have left from morning and started eating.

He asked me to get out. I was like wtf?! No lecturer too had any problem with me eating in class plus it is a common practice by many.

I didn't went out but chose to kept the bread instead.

3hours of dry lesson went on and Im feeling so sleepy~

After lesson, me and my clique went to eat mac and toy r us to slack~

Fooled around then go home.

I reached home, I went to sleep lol

Replied piglet late cos im sleeping but I know the time i reply her, she probably sleeping too lol

Woke up and went out to find my friends who wanted to slack at nearby

Texted piglet and went out. A practice for me, like use to it telling her all my whereabouts

We slacked at buangkok rooftop. 3 of my friends training, while im doing my 'stuff' and listening to my bestie playing guitar.

From 6pm till night, it was 8pm when we decided to grab dinner but of cos I didn't. 

While at there slacking, I saw a guy at lvl 5 taking a video of us.

Not sure why but my bestie go wave to him. I mean come on we are not doing anything wrong at all! Wat is wrong with dancing, air guitaring to a music we like and talking and doing handstands?!?!

What is wrong with singaporeans seriously but we were told my friend that we are indeed a bit noisy but it is also not a reason to film us down. 

Watever la, he want stomp it just let it be lor. Not the first time liao. Infact it has been countless time!

Back to dinner part. They ate, i drank milo. cost me 2dollars~

Left to somewhere where we discuss about helping the parkour beginners again. Long serious talk. Did some movement and I decided to go home first as it was pretty late and I want blog!

My tagged cafe finally can work ler~ like so long.

Piglet tmr going checkup then she must 'fast' I want pei her go but i think her parent with her. So nvm lol

Gonna resume my project "Fold"

Gonna end post! Cya !!!

Xavierahboy <3 Jolenepiglet

IM always sleepy

I woke to a whipped to my leg. It was my bro, he was waking me up cos my parents wants him to.

But didn't care and went on sleeping.

He left for work and my mom came in and wake me up this time.

Was very cranky in the morning so was quite pissed off when they tried to wake me up.

I thought it was quite late ler, so i forced myself wake up only to realize it was just 7.45!!!! I could have sleep another 30min -.-

I told my mom to wake me up at 8am! zzzzz

Doesn't matter, went to have my breakfast. Just a BAO though.

Left around 9.30 to bring my dad to monthly checkup and my mom follow suit

It was a boring 2hours checkup. Was really hungry in between and made a wish to eat and I ownself go out to vending machine and bought snack lol

Told piglet my wish came true ^^ 11:11 really work :D

Around 11.30am, went to visit the finiancial section for some help.

12pm, went to have lunch. It was really really crowded!

Had yongtaufoo. Queue quite long~ but it was nice

Reach home around 2 and slept till 245pm before leaving for my friend house

Re do the bridge and left his house around 5pm~~

Got home. I went to look through some gift shop online.

Boring~ Saw a something and decide to do just that :)

Went hougang mall randomly out of the blue.

Alone, I went to walk around, buy drink, watch ppl play arcade. Bang into random shop

Bought some materials and only to realize the matertial wasn't suitable. Wasted 8dollars -.-

Time isn't on my side. I need to hurry up.

Tmr need to build the bridge in class, time is 30min requirement is simple.

20 transparent straws. Height of bridge at least 5cm, length at least 15cm. Thickness at most 1.5cm, width at least 2cm. No warpping of tape is allow and that is wat makes it harder~

Getting sleepy now, my body clock like getting use to sleeping at 11pm now... :/ weird jump or weird sudden change.

Gotta go sleep soon! Night peeps :D

Xavierahboy <3 Jolenepiglet signing off feeling happy ^^

Bleh~

Fuck google, needa to verify email and stuff before I could login here to use. -.-

Waste time only.

Just ended blog, I have limited time to blog this, so I must type really really fast :P

Gotta sleep early cos I need to wait up early tmr to bring dad to checkup and afternoon need to go my friend house for project and night time meeting my bestie for dinner and slack :P

Woke up specially early today just to bring piglet go sch cos nobody pei her go :O

Her dad need to bring her bro to bedok reservoir then she going sch herself so I pei her :D

Just realized that I ended every sentence with a emoticon hahahaha ^^

Met her at MRT and took train down to SK and walked to her sch.

Really really near~

After she went off, I went home and took a quick nap.

Woke up around 9.45am and straight away leave my house to my friend hosue to start on our first assignment!

Reacehd there around 1015 but walked around for 15min under the stupid sun looking for his block.

What most fail is that I told him where I was which is super near him and he had no idea where that is.

So I walked randomly and aimlessly for 15min till I found

Sweat were already dripping from my chin at that time hahaha.

His house is really cool, nothing much not like my house so messy~

Everything is neatly placed.

We made a bridge, testing it and it could actually hold 1.2kg! Amazing and we only used 17straws~

After that while with the time remaining, we made a lame inside joke video of our friends.

Just edited and uploading to facebook currently. Time 11:22pm.

Went off to find piglet and fetch her from sch to my house.

We bought lunch and at compass before coming to my house.

Ate and a while, I fell asleep, dunno when but I just did.

I was sleeping when I don't know why I suddenly woke up and realized that I was sleeping!

Piglet was playing games~

Then after awhile, we went to nex as I have to pay the courts installment as we have been stalling it for quite long since no one bothers to go pay.

Everyone is just pure lazy or not free.

Pay liao, went library to wayang abit and borrow a book. Piglet did.

Went straight to hougang mall and slack in library. Piglet told me her maplestory stories and it is lucky that I know a bit about maple even though I only played once by whacking slime.

If not I think I wouldn't even understand what she is talking hahahaha.

My friends from secondary, poly, ite all fill me in with maplestories's stories hahahaha

So I jolly well know at least a bit.

Went off and bought drink. Was really thirsty.

Walked around NTUC and before going home, I saw 2 of my friends both which is secondary.

One is my clique from secondary sch and the other one is just a schmate from secondary sch too :P

Send her home and I went home to edit the video but not before eating dinner, bathing etc. hahahaha

Gotta go! I took 15mins :P

Prata for supper!

Xavierahboy <3 Jolenepiglet signing off feeling hungry and tired!

DIZZY!!!

I'm so tired now, didn't slept early last night due to chionging project and now, im a little bit dizzy, though getting better. ^^

Just now meet piglet that time worst...It is like OMG! I wan vomit sia~ ahahahaha

Anyway woke up at 7am after I slept around 4.30am. Woke up having headache and super super tired!!!!

Usual morning rush...hmmm hmmm! It has been a while since I lasat experience such morning rush.

It has been more than 3months? Or longer...can't remember hahaha

But I just miss this feeling. Kind of like it though. It is like 9 to 12 module timing. Like a shiok only hahaha

I don't mind waking up early, see my mom and bro rushing, bickering over the smallest thing~

What a family I have ^^

Left for sch and reached class late. Got scolded by my lecturer. Im already so tired, dragging myself to sch then kena scolded =.=

Nvm that, I want sit with my friend also cannot. Made to sit alone. 15min into the brief and lecturer told us that we can go off!

I was like wtf sia~ I woke up early go sch then 15min bullshit and scolding then no lesson. I could have use the time to sleep more!!!

Damn it! Having done my camera alias, I got nothing to do. Went up to computer lab to slack~

Watched random youtube videos with my friends, laughed and blah blah.

I can't go find piglet too, lecturer fuck up to make us hand in our alias camera file at 230pm

Purposely lor, so we cannot run away zzzz

Nvm ba, Im in good mood throughout whole day :) so doesn't matter.

Left for lunch after 230pm and came back around 3pm++ with 2 bars of kinder bueno

One of the girl in my group project got piss off and apparently, chocolate is the only thing me and my friend can think of to make her happy :/

Of cos she ignore us when we talked to her. This goes to show how piss off she is for not including her in our group discussion as my friend wanted to do just pairs~

But either way, we were glad that in the end her temper gone down and she went home to change to formal wear before coming back sch since formal wear is a requirement for presentation. Initially she didn't want to do and we can't present without her....

I done a few mistakes in the slides and edited the slides through the time I had. Included a few stuff and changed a few words.

Wrong phrasing and typos are common mistake for me.

Wrong pointers too!!! Ahahahaa guess I was really tired ytd that I rush through to finish.

Around 5pm, we assigned the slides as to who will do which part.

Around 6pm, we went for our presentation and surprisingly, I wasn't nervous at all. I felt confidence! Ahahaha

Didn't know doing ppt slides and report has gain me so much knowledge about Marks & Spencer since we're doing that company :P

Left around 7 with another friend to go home and piglet told me that her friend who is suppose to teach her science went off because his friend go taqi.

Wahlao lame lor, then throw my piglet alone....She asked if I want to come a not. OF COS I WILL HAHAHAHA

Reached around 820 cos bus slow~

I started to feel a bit unwell as I was walking to hougang mall.

Dunno why, felt so dizzy and feel like vomiting.

Either way, reached library and saw piglet doing her chinese compo. Didn't want to disturb her, so I took the time to rest.

She finished liao and we went to arcade and she played a game of bballs

Result wasn't her usual cos she was writting chinese compo then her fingers tired~~

Then we go out to slack. I feel so hot!

Of cos, sat a while until, I feel a bit like want faint then I thought of walking around.

But sat back down in the end. I miss hugging her!

Her hair smell the same, the same comfort i get when i hug her. I had so many things to tell her!

More than 1week nvr see I just have to pour out all my adventures and tell her hahahaha

Then after awhile, i felt too hot and piglet suggested going back in and we did.

Went to buy her dinner and she went to buy maggie cookies for her bro.

Lol~ my favourite snack when i was young becos of the stickers!

Or some toys, I don't rmb. But i rmb buying a lot last time for someting in the package :D

Sent her home and staggered to bus stop. Felt really uncomfortable. Keep feeling nausea.

Okok end post here :D gonna have my dinner hungry!!!! 

Xavierahboy <3 Jolenepiglet signing off feeling hungry!!!

3.49am

I cried the most last night, making my eyes red and painful. My bro and mom saw me crying, they know why.

I woke up and went to do facebook, tagged checking for updates. I saw piglet's status and only then I realized she was hurt deeply hurt by me again. I wonder when will I stop sub consiously stabbing her? I gave her too many wounds.

She did gave me too in self defence. I saw that she went to update blog and she slept at 5am, all because it is my fault. She didn't have enough sleep ytd. Im so bastard...

Read the blog, I feel so guilty. What am I thinking??? Seriously? I feel like a dick, a prick. How can a man make a girl cry so many times? I listened to so mmmmmmaaaannnnnnnnnyyyyy songs that man shouldn't let a girl cry but yet time and time again. I did...

But I was glad, that she love me, she have been unconditionally loving me and what had I been doing??? I just suck...I deserve to be punish.

 I woke up watching doraemon and shower. After that I left my house for my project. Going to my friend house to do.

Texted piglet, waiting for her reply, I was doing my report. We slacked for a while before really doing it.

Played a bit too. Around 4pm, her mom told me that she will buy something small for us to eat. I was like ok and who knows? Her something small turns out to be a meal. A chicken chop. There goes my dinner with my friends who I anyhow agreed last night.

Texting with piglet was cool~ alright, felt better.

Left around 6 to hougang mall to meet my friends for 'dinner' but the main objective was to print the camera file that I spent 6days doing it.

Printed and I accompanied them to eat long john silver. My another group of friends keep pushing me to come over to clarke quay to accompany them.

I left around 8 and trained down to clarke quay. Reached there 830pm and slacked with them.

My friends talk a lot of dirty stuff. Musterbating blah blah. I joined in, quite funny and I have always been entertaining them and that was what I did.

After a while, they got bored and suggested a pub.

We went 7ven inch where there was a live band. My friends drank, I was thirsty but I was drinking only plain water as Im allergy to alcholol and can't drink.

The live band was too loud and funny how we communicate using text on our phone.

Played with lighter, camera shot, slowmotion and a lot of shits.

I was texting piglet the whole time. Holding my phone in my hands, putting it on table. Vibrates come and I would immediately attend to it.

But of cos I type slow, my friends were talking to me and I can't text while listening to them talking or if not that would be utterly rude.

Ended and we left. Slacked a bit before going home. Reached home around 1130 and I had my ppt slides to do as well as journal.

After came out of shower, I immediately do, hoping to finish and at least catch some sleep.

Oh shit it is 4.08 now. Gotta sleep at least even if it is just 2hours!

Im very tired now. Ending post~

Xavierahboy <3 Jolenepiglet signing off ^^

i've something to say.. -piglet jo.

I don't know how much words i say to hurt you.

I don't know what should i do now..

I don't know what will happen to me..

I don't know how many times i can take the blow of the frequent breakdown..

I don't know how much trouble i gave you..

I don't know how much things i wanted you to do even though you are busy..

I've done everything i could as a GF.

• Giving BF freedom.
• Allowing him to do anything he wants as long as he's happy.
• Making him happy as long as i'm capable of doing.
• Manage my time well and do some blogging.
• Plan my time to meet him and find every reasons to go out and meet him no matter how hard it is.
•  To make myself happy so as to not affecting his mood and stuff.
  
  
  
  I've have been trying hard to change.
  Change my attitude, change my temper.
  Change my character, change my style.
  Change my looks..
  But actually i failed..
  I've never been up to your expectations.
  From what i see, i only gave u tears and sadness.
  Irritating and give u alot of troubles when u are busy.
  Blame u for everything.
  Ask u to do this and that for me..
  Nothing has been done by myself.
  I've tried to do everything but i'm a failure.
   
  I might have said something wrong..
  But did u even understand what i really wants and really understand me ?
  I say mayb we should stop text-ing is because i text you with a happy mood, and u kept emo-ing all the way.
  I know u are stress up and stuff and going to work so u wouldnt have time to text me.
  So i intend to wait u after work and text you.
  I waited and waited.
  I dont know when u end. So at 11plus i text you.
  
  
  And u doubt my love for you.
  You doubt our relationship.
  You doubt our trust.
  You accuse me of not liking u anymore..
  You doubt everything about me..
  
  
  You hurt me once again.
  Deeply..
  Painfully..
   
  I saw ur tagged status..
  I saw ur messages..
  Everything makes me drop every single tears painfully..
  "Piglets will be dye limegreen and pink"..
  "Your thoughts of me being married to you and have our own family.."
  "Goodbye.."
  Do u know what u are talking about?
  Do you know how much i care for you?
  
  
  Today i went to my granny house with my leg still hurting..
  On the way there, i was looking at my phone..
  I was looking if u would have randomly text me at anytime..
  You are not the only one keep looking at the phone..
  So am i..
  I reach there.
  I'm tired.
  I thought i could rest properly and take a nap on the sofa..
  But everyone sit and refuse to let me sit..
  So i quietly just let them enjoy sitting..
  I cross my leg, lying on my bag..
  Suffering there but i couldnt care much..
  I know my body needs the rest..
  I lie for 10mins my granny wake me up for dinner.
  I know my leg can take it..
  It suddenly turn numb and no feeling..
  But i wont show it..
  I just kept quiet and had my injections..
  The small little prick was indeed pain..
  
  
  We are on the verge of breaking..
  But we didnt..
  A lot people care for me..
  Thanks my bestie been there for me being my listening ear..
  I indeed feel better.
  My body's aching..
  My eyes are soared and blurred..
  Is really pain..
  I really need a pill to make me sleep forever..
  
  
  I dont know how much longer i will live..
  I dont know how much longer i will have to suffer under my illness.
  I dont know how long can i bear the hurt..
  I dont know how to hold on with the stress..
  I dont know how much longer can i deal with exams, homeworks, money issue, thinking of art, thinking of whether to find a job..
  Whether to slack or ignore or dont care about 'O' lvls..
  
  
  I know i'm studying hard not for the sake of parents neither is for the sake of them working so hard for good life and my education..
  But is my future..
  
  
  I NEEDS a good future..
  I need to have a good job to earn money for my future child and family..
  I want them to live a good live and had  proper and good education..
  
  
  Money can indeed do wonders..
  Am i right?
  
  
  My back aching.. My legs having a pricky pain..
  My right side is feeling weak now..
  
  
  I really hope i could do everything that i always dream for before something bad happens.
  I really want to run and get a gold for narfa and get into the arcade competition and challenge all the way to china..
  I dont want to get weaker..
  I want to win! 
  I want to be perfect..
  Even though i know no one is perfect.. 
  But i do know that when someone really works hard for something..
  They will have a sense of achievement..
  Even though they didnt made it but they tried..
  But i always gave myself too much hope and cause me to get hurt and get more disappointed..
  
  
  What is goal..
  What is achievement..
  What is work hard?
  Do i ever experience any?
  
  
  Am i crazy due to stress that i couldnt cope with now?
  Or i just simply cant be bothered to study?
  Or i'm just too stupid to understand the importance of studying?
  Or am i just never think of the future just use mouth to talk but no actions?
  OR I AM ALL OF THE ABOVE?
  
  
  Whats wrong with me..
  A family who loves me and cares me..
  A boyfriend willing to sacrifice his freedom and pain to me..
  Willing to transfer all my pain to him..
  Willing to do anything to make me happy..
  
  
  But what i gave him was always sadness and tears..
  A guy who will drop his tears in public for me..
  A guy who always respected me and dont mind my past..
  A guy who always help me in my art..
  A guy who is willing to sacrifice his time for me to help me in my studies and encourage me.
  A guy who always care for me, wanting to make me happy..
  And im the one who is always making things difficult for him..
  
  
  I really feel like a bytch..
  
  
  I should end my post here.
  My back is really pain..
  I never had such pain before..
  
  
  I have calmed down..
  I have stop dropping my tears..
  
  
  Even though, in future we forget everything and start anew..
  Things will never be like the same like the past..
  We wouldnt have as much topic to talk about..
  We wouldnt be as close as now..
  
  
  But the love and care that we always had will remains there as always..
  
  
  You are tired of dropping tears by now..
  I suppose you are sleeping right now..
  Im gonna stop this post..
  And everything will start anew from tomorrow..
  
  
  I will find time to blog..
  
  
  I will takecare of myself.
  I'm big enough..
  
  
  Takecare of yourself and dont keep worried for me..
  I still got my family to love me and takecare me..
  So even if i dont takecare they also will takecare of me..
  
  
  See you on tuesday..
  
  
  2 more days to 2nd month anniversary..
  3 more days to meeting..
  
  
  Signing off with loves, care and tired, jolene piglet laopo <3 xavier ahboy laogong.
  *piget dyes with limegreen and pink*