It has been really busy for me lately

Going out with friends, partying, basically saying, I would mean the basic of enjoying life.

Training is more frequent.

Sat went for chalet tonn till morning and sunday afternoon went to watched movie

Monday went to ah ma house, played with my cousin

Tuesday went training was also the day I had food poisoning thanks to some rotten cakes, so did piglet and a few of my friends too. Surprisingly, a lot of people got tummyache on that fateful day I had. Movie outing was cancelled for me

Wednesday, I went to work and meet up with my friends to go drinking. Drank till 11 plus plus then I went to eat mac. Had a little to much, I was a bit tipsy and was feeling damn dizzy but it was awesome. It has been ages since I last went to drink with friends

For this whole week, Im packed! Today after work, Im going to help my friends do some filming. Friday is a beginner workshop, Sat I have got work and so is sunday.

Holidays is really shiok. Shiok as in I can chiong earn money! Go out ton with friends, movie, yes. This is what money can do and that was my lifestyle 2 years ago until I had my family problems.

Gonna go prepare for work soon, gtg!

Zavierahboy signing off!

this blog seems dead.

Even though im really tired, and my body starting to collapse but i still decided to blog.

I started this blog, i wants it to goes on.

Nobody care about this blog already.

I everyday came, looking whether is the blog updated.

But it stopped.

I shouldnt relied on others, but start to maintain and update this blog myself already. 

Right?

I'm fine..

I've get use to life.

But i saw the past post, i felt guilty for whatever i had done.

Today/ tomorrow celebrating father's day.

I love my father, my family too.

He had done alot for the family.

Driving me and bro to school.

Work hard, earn money for the family.

Fetch me home, worried for my safety when im outside when its late w/o transport home.

Despite being late, he talks to us, play with us.

Every week, enjoy the wonderful time with us!

Thanks daddy! 

I really do miss the feeling of being hugged and love by someone.

Not that kind of family love, but a different types of love.

What is love? 

Do i really understand this word?

I might seems to be too young for this word, but do my maturity allows me to understand the importance of love and life?

Does it makes me understand that i should protect myself, care for myself before loving, caring and taking care of people?

DO I understand?

I'm stressed.

This week im super free~ 

I've no school for ONLY this week of the month.

JUNE HOLIDAYS!

This monday, went to check up.

Went to bugis with mum and bro~ 

Went to eat, and after a while went to meet ZEN. 

My maple laogong.

Went to movie with him, and his frenz.

Before that we went to arcade and had a fun short time there.

After movie, his frenz went to pick the gf and met us.

Zen fetch me home-d till serangoon~ 

We had a great time.

Watching x-men~ NICE~

Tuesday,

Went out with monkey and watch super 8 and went home.

Not bad only the show. 

HAHA! Still watchable~ 

Wednesday, at home mapling i suppose~ 

I forget most of the things already~ 

Thursday, went out again with ZEN.

This time round, different le :D

With his poly mates and lecturer.

Watch green lantern.

When we came out its already 11.45pm.

I have no bus/ mrt home.

Father fetched me, zen waited for him. He worried so he say that when my father reach then he go.

Thanks ZEN. 

I'm quite worried for him though. 

He's feeling unwell and keep vomitting.

I hope he's getting better now.

Friday, YTD!.

Maple again. 

Lvl-ed 65.

Then drop my first tears for the month before i slept.

I emo-ed and felt sad and dropped my tears.

I dont really know whats the reason! 

Today, maple halfway felt pain around my body. And decided to stop and rest.

Mayb celebrating fathers day later! 

SO CYA PEEPS! 

Do view my blogshop too! 

Do contact me @ 9800-1138 for any details and toys that u want.

I would take a photo of it and send it to you~ :D

 http://jolene-toyland.blogspot.com ~

Loves, jolene pigpig <3 SOMEONE?

There was just so much distraction ytd when I was blogging

Didn't really focus much on minor details but I guess that isn't important isnt it?

Listening to Lian Ai Pin Lu, a song i enjoyed when I was younger~

Really awesome song I must say, I still sing this song whenever I go to kbox :)

I feel rich this few days, my dad strikes 4D, I just got my bursary, gonna return my friends the money I owe them and relieve all sttress.

This coming holiday, I want to chiong work, make a lot of money and enjoy.

Now that my sister is married, the stress is greater on me. My family rely more on me now.

But nvm, im ready for anything that is coming my way.

Today in sch, we are suppose to make a toy, auto mata, a moving toy.

I have no idea how to make.

It is a toy that moves when u turn a wheel, like winding up a musical box and instead of music, the toy moves.

So yeah it is hard, and i only have until fri to complete!

Damn screw, I dont know how to start so I just made a torso and a head :/

Planning to make an arcade game about the guy punching a punching bag.

Easy? Yeah story is easy, but fuck it, the mechanism is hard!

Recently a lot of pimples on the chin

Quite painful

Today, I also got my bursary, what I care is i get the money.

Kinda funny how this ITE bursary arrive only after more than a year i graduated!

Like hell!~ Im already in my second year! Come on! Now then give -.- but better than nth.

Hope I can get poly bursary too :P

I need money! Money money!!!

Zavierahboy signing off~

Wedding

I was woke up by my mom around 650am.

I was having morning wood, then my mom wanted me to go all the way, a bus stop away walk to buy breakfast.

I went to wear my boxer cos I wasn't wearing anything. I mean I got my pants on.

I walked down the street with a boner -.-

Fuck up, but it was gone after a while.

Came back and my siblings were awake.

We ate our noodles and prepare whatever we need to.

I ironed clothes and had my breakfast.

After a while our first guest arrived and it was my grandma and 3rd uncle's wife.

They assisted us in preparation for the wedding.

We all then slacked until the groom arrive and Im suppose to go down and open the door.

So I went, then got ang bao :D

The groom was very bad mannered >:(

I was wondering why my sis even want to marry to him but never mind I now know why.

So I escort him up and we all slack in her room, take pictures and we all went to the groom house for the first tea ceremony.

Reached by through a driving that was totally crazy! They were weaving through the traffic at 100km/h -.-

Almost had an accident but didn't happen...LUCKILY!~

Ate KFC and a minor tea ceremony is held.

There was barely 10 people in the house. The groom didn't invite anyone at all.

Was told he didn't like the crowd.

Hmmmm I wonder what that say about him.

He then keep taking my sister cigarettes.

He wasn't serious, really really fuck up.

We then move on back to my house where it was a total crowd!

I think more than 50 people turned up!

The house was full, the corridor and lift lobby is really packed.

I was really shocked by the number, we waited for a while until everyone had their full before beginning the tea ceremony on our side.

It was really long as both of my parents side have a lot of siblings.

I was the one taking photo, didn't get many good shots as my everybody was walking around >.<

There was some blurry shots too :/

Oh well after it ended, some sat for a while but many left

It was soon from a overcrowded place to really kind of spacious for a few minutes change :/

After that, we all decided to clean up as we dont expect anymore guest.

There was a lot of things to clean up !

A few more guest came late but there was food for them so yeah. Hahahaha

We did final clean up around 3.30 and I sent my aunt home to MRT there.

I was really tired, so I fell asleep in bus and the moment I got home, I slept till 6pm.

Really tired but nvm.

My dad also strike 4D. Really happy to hear that.

My sister married, so we could get the money to pay for the debts. She really made a big sacrifice.

All the ang bao money can use to pay our debt.

Gonna end post liao,

My house damn noisy so hard to focus... -.-

Zavierahboy signing off~

Tidy Up!

I woke up again having bad tummyache

I know that today, for the whole day, Im going to tidy up the whole house that hasn't been done in a few months

Few months ago was done by me and my mom. Today, it was a one man show with assist from my mom.

So 930am, I watched doraemon and waited for my mom to say start then I start cos I thought she is going to help me.

So we slack, ate and finally we started at 1230pm.

Ok, she brought me bucket of water and cloth and she ask me to do.

I do and realized that she was giving excuses. Never mind loh, so I do everything by myself. She like running errand for her friends. Buy 4D that is.

I chiong, everything is just so dusty, so much stuff that I just threw whatever I see an eyesore without consulting anyone.

She came back, scold me a bit, I can tell she a bit not happy I threw some stuff away.

Around 3pm, I got really tired, I went to lie on the sofa and fell asleep.

Slept for a good 2hours before, I was wake by my mom . There was bread and coffee, my afternoon snack

After that, I was asked to go do some groceries, took me a while. Bought a lot of stuff my mom asked me to. :/

12 big oranges, 8 med oranges, a bag of flower, 10 eggs, vermecelli. It was really heavy but luckily it was only few blocks away.

Got back, text piglet text halfway then went straight continue do. Was too into tidying up, I ignored my surrounding

Had chicken chop for dinner, really nice~ Threw away more stuff.

The fresh look after clearing a lot of stuff away. My house now look so much spacious!

It is like I can even do a flip X)

Right now, my sister is tidying up her room with my elder bro's help.

I need a rest, I been straight at it for 7hours.

Tired shit~

Tomorrow need wake up early~ Sian.

I need plenty of rest, so gonna sleep early tonight.

Im off to eat some food and then I go sleep!

Zavierahboy signing off~

Yesterday I didn't blog, as I was really tired and really shag from the workshop in the afternoon.

Or in fact, I was sick of typing because when I got home, I was typing away my journal which I did last minutes and I have to type 8 days of journal.

I forgotten 70% of what happened, maybe only remembered the major of what I done during sch.

So I kind of crap my way through and typed for hours.

Took many breaks in between.

There was simply just too many distraction.

The TV, my bro talking to me, my mom complaining to me about my dad and nagging about my sis's wedding.

It was kind of chaotic to my brain in which it is trying hard to make my crap believable.

Hours typing away, I finally finished around 11pm but I was super sick of using the com and typing that I decided not to blog or play games.

Instead my eyes told that they want to rest and so I hit the bed early for a good rest.

I woke up several times in the middle of the night because I was having a bad stomache ><

Went to shit most of the times, it was 3 times to be exact.

Woke up when my dad shout from the toilet for my mom. He accidentally cut his balls again and it was bleeding.

I tried to help him, it was just a small cut but there was a lot of blood.

It was dripping. But i didn't care much cos I was really tired.

Woke up at 7 to prepare for sch.

Went to sch and did our final work.

Finishing up everything, all of us went to computer lab to add in last min research to fill up our PMF

Presentation at 1pm but we didn't know and only know of it when we were in the room.

We were totally unprepare and we screwed up our presentation.

We all got really pissed off as the lecturer was really guai lan with us and it seems to me like he is always aiming at me.

Everybody was talking in the room, I was just telling my group a bit of the information on what we are gonna say he straight away ask me to get out.

Sua, nvm I didn't go out. But I was fucking angry. I cool down in a bit but I was really frustrated.

He wasn't happy with our presentation and asked us to redo a part.

All my group memebers were slacking as they didn't feel like giving a damn anymore.

I took the initiative to do the work and got it printed.

Im really tired from the chain of events and slept in the bus on the way home.

I thought I could finally rest when I got home but housework is all I done.

I finally have the time and I took it to blog first.

Gonna go eat my second round dinner, I had it 1hour ago but I dunno why Im very hungry, maybe because I was angry? First time Im so pissed off....

Zavierahboy signing off feeling damn angry >:(

New hair O.o

So I cut my hair today, wouldn't say it is the best cos after taking pic and comparing, I realized I spent 14bucks to shave a side and do a pattern :/

Ok maybe not that bad but it doesn't turn out as I expected it to be :(

Hair is definitely a bit more shorter so maybe styling is easier~

Having problem uploading new pic of my hair on tagged

Can't care much. So a normal day with normal routine.

7am, waking up in the morning gonna take my bread and munch on it, gonna get down to the bus stop. I see my friends~ Squeeze in the lowwer deck, full house on the upper , which deck should I take~ Its schooling , schoolling Okok just kidding lol

But that waas how it went :D

Went straight to workshop, didn't have time to pei piglet go polyclinic as I have sch. She have food poisoning then waited hours alone then can see the doctor

Seriously, polyclinic should improve in their service. Always long queue, long registration long waiting time.

Me and my friends worked out some stuff in the workshop. Spent almost 10bucks getting material and we went for lunch.

I saw my aunt and of cos we said hi.

We drill, saw till 3.30pm and that was when we all decided to go cut our hair.

We all had a hard time deciding where to cut until I got kind of du lan and told them to stop talking about it.

All the talking makes my excitement gone.

Got to the salon. What a long queue but we waited around 20min for me. Wasn't tat bad since Im with friends.

All of us shave side/sides and did patterns :D

All same patterns lol.

Im gonna post pic :D

Gonna go help my sis soon with giving out flyers!

Zavierahboy signing off!

BLOB.

Bloggy bloggy, gotta blog now so later I can focus on my group project which we doing via skype or mass msn convo


The last time I remember doing it, didn't went well at all....


Not sure about this time, different character coming together, is history gonna repeat itself?


My hives is gone, I mean I can't see it but I can still feel the itchiness a bit!


Well, maybe sign of improving but I can't take this chance and not take my med, I don't want any chance for the hives to act up again at all.


Im actually rubbing the itchiness while typing, I shouldn't have done that! It could bring back the nightmare ><


So morning was usual, I woke up on tagged and facebook to check for updates.


Hopped on bus my friend was in and I felt really uncomfortable sitting next to a girl with a lot of make up.


She looked a bit tranny, then keep brushing against her, I seriously felt like changing seat but I know it would be too obvious so I just bear with it.


The bus ride wasn't that peaceful haha


Usual, sch and stuff. Talk cock with friends. Everyday is the same, It is like only before and after then got things to say.


Sch is like so boring, that no much ppl talks good stuff about their sch hahaha.


After sch!


Reached back home and my mom told me to help her tidy up a bit and I took around 2hours to tidy up a part in the living room! So much rubbish! So many shoes!!!


Many many shoes boxes also, all very dusty but I done it finally.


I think I wanna give my house a bit makeover slowly, I feel more organize.


My sister wedding in few days time, she don't seem to be happy. She seem a bit more sian you know?


I don't know what she thinking, if she dont like the guy how come want marry? The guy isn't at all great anyway.


He is shit compare to many. He is like among the bad guys~


So either way, after tidying up, a lot of dust in my house then I vaccum like crazy and finally took a break!


Now waiting for my friend to text me then I can do my part.


So bored now, just did cafe for piglet. Then she glad Im ok~


Im glad too, Im glad she is getting on fine ^^

Xavierahboy signing off!

Dirty :O

Today is a boring day for me, 4th day the hives persisted.

As usual, I woke up with better condition and I concluded that if my body is less active, the hives will slowly go away and only be more active when Im more active.

Woke up 7am, I thought it was holiday so I didn't bother. But soon realized that I have sch, hahaha.

Saw piglet text and that reminded me to do her cafe.

The serving table was full :/ so yeah, I did it in the morning.

Left for sch around 8am and reached sch late.

Well, always, I can never be early for any morning lessons.

We were supposed to come up with a automata concept. Automata is a moving toy that when you turn a wheel, the toy will move.

Kinda hard because of the mechanism.

Oh well, lecturer was funny,we bickered with him. Made the class laughed

The class ended fast, we went out to have our lunch and discussed about cutting hair together on wednesday!

We all plan to shave one side and put the same hair tattoo X)

Gonna be cool and funny!

Can't wait for wednesday!

After lunch we went to slack and I bought a limegreen earpiece :D

10 bucks, no bass, expected but I just need music in my ear when Im on the move and when there is no one with me. :)

So about time ,we went down to workshop and started on our new projects, we need to dismantle a damn fan!

Dismantling was fun but soon my hives came back, it started to act up. I know it was time for me to eat my medicine.

I rushed through my friends and we all went home together. Hives on my biceps were bumpy and red. It was very very itch and unbearable too

Soon as I got home, I immediately shower, took my med and applied the lotion.

Soothing and shiok. I love the soothing effect but I know it won't nice.

Of cos , bored as Im I went to tidy up my room and did some housework.

It made me more itch but didnt really care.

The old neighbour beside me, pick up the rubbish I threw O.o

He must be really crazy, stacking up more useless thing to make his house a breeding place for insects and cockroaches.

Really disgusting. There was once I went in, I can see ants everywhere and biscuit and bread crumbs on the floor.

Many picked up rubbish from toys to clothes and to boxes.

I felt the most uncomfort the moment I went in.

Gonna slack more and play games!

Xavierahboy signing off!

BOO!

3rd day that Im down with his freaking hives.

I woke up early with my usual routine of watching doraemon, my bro sat beside me and we watched together.

Quite funny, today episode~ Soon, around 1030am, after I had my breakfast, my father came back with his mom which is my grandmother.

They came to talk about the wedding as my mom and dad knows nut about it.

My sis together with her fiancee and the uncle came to give us cakes, wine and other things.

A lot of things, I helped out to bring the goods in.

Then they left and we were left with my ah ma in our house.

They chatted normally, I was stretching, hoping to achieve a flexibility so my whole palm can touch the floor.

My goal getting nearer. I can now put my fingers on the ground except the palm

Around 12, my dad pleaded me to bring my ah ma home and of cos I was a bit reluctant as I have red patches all over my body but I went on anyway.

My bro followed me cos I wanted him to.

We took the bus, I talk to my grandma, grabbed her by her shoulder and walked with her.

Send her back home, me and my bro then left for nex to pay for our courts installment.

Bus was long but reached there quite a while.

Didn't took long. We walked walked the pasar malam there and went to nex.

The itch was getting unbearable, I wanted to home and rest but my bro insisted to walk a while more and I obliged him.

Had our lunch and met up with his friends and went home around 430

I ate my med the first thing I got home and applied calamine lotion the doc prescribed me.

Didn't really helped much but I was hoping even that little bit can help.

A while more, my bro came back and we left for hougang mall around 715

Needed to print some stuff but xorex closed half and hour earlier???

Fuck it, but never mind, I managed to print the stuff at my neighbour house later on.

I went to arcade, walked one round and walked out before going for our dinner.

Saw the challenger piglet always face.

They are always there lol.

After dinner, we went to walk around hougang mall, blah blah then went home.

The gift sits in my room, I wonder when do I get the chance to give her. :/

My hives looks like it won't give up anytime.

Walking around with red patches all over my body and stares totally suck .

Tomorrow got to sch regardless of what, I want the hives to be gone!!!

Xavierahboy signing off!

Hives

I felt that today, I wasted one day of my life at home, doing nothing productive.

I have no mood to do anything, I wanted to go out but I can't

Supposingly, Im suppose to work but Im currently down with this hives that all over my body at the moment.

I woke up as usual 930am to watch doraemon. Im starting to like doraemon and it seems like a weekly routine to me now.

Last night, my hives were gone and I was really happy, you know? But somehow today when I woke up, I have it all over my body again.

This time worst than yesterday.

After doraemon, I went to eat my breakfast, text my friend, told her Im not going work asking her to help me tell the boss.

Around 12pm, the rashes spread, I felt itch all over my body. I wanted it to be gone immediately but I know that is not possible.

I went to visit the doctor for the 2nd time using my own money as I know my dad would be really unhappy if I use his money again.

Got injection again and new set of medicine.

The injection took effect immediately and the hives was disappearing slowly but after a few hours later, it came back again.

This time spreading to my palm and sole of the foot.

I did apparently nothing through the whole day other than indulging myself deep in thoughts, playing games and watching lame videos.

My mom is really worried, I can feel her care, her concern.

I like my mom, I love her but is that love or is that just plain concern? What is love???

Yesterday, I rush through just to finish the 2nd anniversary gift and hope to give her.

I really hate doing things half way and stop.

So I continue with the gift and I finished it after a few days.

I don't know when Im going to give to her.

I wanted to give her like on sunday? But Im down with hives and that is not so possible.

I have miss 2 days of work due to this stupid hives which is worth 12hrs of work which is worth 84dollars!

84 in just 2 days is alot to me.

I can do so much with this money. I can pay back my friends and help with my family debts.

My plans for now is to train really hard, be a good boy.

Doing what I love is freedom.

I want to relax now, the itch is killing me every second.

I hate it now, red patches all over my body, my face but luckily not on my dick or balls.

Zavierahboy(nickname you gave me) signing off feeling itch all over!!!

i didnt know that actually..

I know i should have disappear from your life..

Since you told them that we break up, you dont seems like u want to talk to me cos it is very painful to you..

Maybe i should just stop texting you.

And after sometimes, u will not see this blog anymore. 

Actually u say u dont mind, u didnt blame me..

But actually im already a bytch in ur heart..

You think that i wouldnt come to this blog anymore.

This blog started by me..

Having a blog also i start de.

So this is what u think about me.

But its okay..

From today onwards, i wont disturb u anymore. 

Lets just be friends bah..

You already assume that way, then i shall follow what u want. 

This is the only way to make u feel better.

Thanks for mentioning me that how great i am..

How good i am..

How i care and love you..

But you didnt mention anything about my bad part..

Just to leave a good impression in front of ppl, u tell people that u initiate the break..

But true fact is me..

Since ur post is short, since u say thats the last post u will be posting, i understand what u mean already.

Really thanks for being such a good bf and love me and care me..

You love me not because of my body, neither sex..

But my heart.

My human..

But i dont know how to treasure it..

I doubt everything will be the same. 

I doubt you will meet me and talk or even help me..

Thanks for accompanying me for that half an hour. To be exact is 38mins.

You rush and there.

And u told me just to see me and talk to me..

I'm selfish..

Now more people will hate me..

Change your status to single bah..

People seems happy of me breaking cos they can jio me?

Till now already got alot ppl text me already.

Will my message exceed 4k?

Will it be back to normal cos now i have more ppl to text with cos they wanted to jio me?

Never mind..

Lets just end everything bah..

I will concentrate in my maple and sell my toys..

You will concentrate in your parkour training, ur time with yr family, ur work, ur income to pay debts from ur family, ur friends..

I've no right to take any of ur time..

See you. Bye.

Hope u will find ur happiness again.

Hope ur wishes all come true.

you dont have to talk to me nicely neither u have to promise or help me anymore.

signing off with a heartless heart and no more smile, jolene soh hui min.

Like it or not?

I have come to term, no matter how much I wish I can still hold on to it, I must learn to let it go...

In which I did, it was painful, memories flooded my mind last night.

An angel decended into my world, I found her and took care of her now that her wings are repaired, she have to go back. I can't be selfish to hold on to her.

It was an experience, thanks for everything again.

I didn't go sch today because I didn't felt like it. Friends big mouth started to spread but managed to stop it in time.

She wanted me to accompany her to polyclinic but it clashes with the time that I need to bring my father go hospital for checkup.

Either way, I took the effort to see her accompany her :)

Then got to hospital and checkup dragged from 2pm to 5pm! I didn't eat in morning so I was fucking hungry lol

Finally 5pm food! Then I train down to Clarke Quay to meet my best friend for small talk, slack.

I needed it. I need to forget everything

Slack, sing and had fun till it was 9 before we decide to head home.

I don't know if Im gonna continue blogging at this blog anymore.

This might be my last post? I don't know if she still visit this blog anymore.

Maybe she have already move on. It is time I should too.

Xavierahboy signing off~

I don't know why this relationship turns out to be like this

Im dead confuse, what went wrong?

She told me that her feelings for me is starting to fade, I was sad when I read that msg and that she is trying very hard to continue

From that moment, I know, I knew that day would come. I was sad alright, but at the same time, I was ready to accept the fact.

The fact that we can't see each other again.

She told me she want to be my ganstead, someone who will be there as a gf when I need her.

I don't mind really, but what if she have a bf, what will he think?

But we have been talking lesser.

And seems like we have nothing to talk.

Sometimes i really feel very pekcek and stress but u are talking lame stuff and doing childish things.

Then i really feel abit irritated.

 

 

I didn't know that she felt irritated by my actions. By nature, Im a childish person, lame person.

 

If after awhile i fall in love with another guy and i stead with him..

Will you blame me?

Will my impression in you change?

Will you forgive me and continue to help me in my art?

Will you?

 

No I won't blame you.

Maybe?

Yes, I will

 

I know u still love me, right? 

You are disappointed in me right?

 

I don't know what is love anymore

Yes, Im

 

How are you now?

Can we still be like last time?

We chat, we joke, we have lovely chats.

And spend our time together..

Or you feel that is too pain for you?

 

Im feeling sad...

Yes

 

 

When can i treat u eat and spend my money.?

 

Anytime

Can we still be able to every month the 23rd give each other a gift?

 

Not sure.

 

I already told my parents about it, they understand. They didn't ask why. I told them I was one who initiate the breakup so don't worry. No bad impression on you.

 

I think I don't know what you are thinking anymore. We just be the ganstead ba like you say. I feel better and I think it is better for you too.

 

Ur tagged status, touched me. Ur msg touched me too....

 

Im very confuse

 

Im very tired....

 

I dunno what to write anymore.

 

Xavierahboy signing off